Forecast Unknown

Job news came in today unfortunately. There are three positions open, two filled by classmates, and a tie for the third position between the last three of us. We will know by Friday. It's nerve-racking to say the least. A piece of my heart is with all of these people at this hospital, and thinking about leaving makes me incredibly sad!

And everyone tries to reassure me with references to paths. Robert Frost once talked about a path, and people haven't quit talking about them since! I suppose this is because it is so true to the development of our lives. We grow to love the change that is often thrown upon us unwanted, and we look back glad that we were forced to catch it. Karma, God, chance; however you believe you were made to keep taking these steps on this path that continually unearths before you, embrace it. I have no regrets about my life. Mistakes? Yes, many. Words spoken and actions taken that make my tummy turn? Absolutely. But I would not change any of it. I love the person that I am. I've gotten to know me quite well, and I like me, as imperfect as I am.

So I'm supposed to use this time as discovery I think: a map if you will. And through the nerves and possible disappointment I do see the pavement starting to show, little by little. There is much thanks to be had that I am not alone on this path. I entered this world alone, I will leave alone, but I do not have to walk alone. Is this how Dorothy felt? It's The Wizard of Oz! I have the dog and red shoes and everything!!! The reward is in the journey, not the destination. So although the forecast is unknown, right now it's sunny, warm, and I'm gonna take Toto...er Maggie, to the park. :)

Sunny and Warm

The last few months have been such a whirlwind I haven't had time to let the insecurities of change sink in. I suppose the longer you go along the easier it gets, or maybe I'm just super excited about the changes taking place! Getting a real life grown-up job is probably the most exciting of all of it. I'm ready. I never want to have to ask another person I don't know if I can refill their tea, or if they've saved some room for dessert...I'll be right back with your change!

My sister having a baby is just another happy thing. I am so happy for her. Knowing that our lives are blooming and growing into what we have dreamed of and have been working towards is a blissful feeling. I feel blessed.

My future with Terry is just another reason for it. Things just feel right. 'Nuff said.

The downside to all of this is of course letting go of what held you together these last couple of years: my class. Incredibly close, we are splitting up to graduate and get real jobs. Most of us will hopefully be working together (still no news on who's getting jobs), but the dynamic will change. Paula is moving to Indiana, and Brandon has a job out of town. The rest will probably remain in the Abilene area. These people have meant so much to me: Nina bringing food on class days, lunch at the round table in the cafeteria, texting to get through boring rotations, walks to the parking lot at the end of the day, half the class trying to do an x-ray together (how many students does it take to take an x-ray?), labs, crazy patient stories, late hours...I could go on and on. They were my family for the short but long two years. At least we made the best of it!

Partly cloudy in the morning; expect sun and warm temperatures in the afternoon

Hey all! I suppose this is my attempt at a record of some sort (as I'm sure most blogs are). I've been wanting to document the general thoughts, creative ideas, and pics of my generally quiet life. Maybe I'm hoping this will help me to realize the form of my day to day existence. I'd like to look back and know that I wasn't so lost in the moment that I forgot to appreciate and take a little time for analysis, a little time to allow some inkling of wisdom to settle in :)